the sun it rises slowley as you walk

Right now i could use a hot cup of tea and some close girlfriends.

anxiety

I’m deeply hurt

how

am i supposed to focus on myself when im taking care of others.

This place…

can get pretty confusing. Its hard to balance everything with time. Wouldn’t it be more enjoyable if it wasn’t such a stress. I think there would be more i would want to do.

The end of an era

Today the world celebrated the life of a man to never be forgotten. Peter Orville Honrud (my great-grandfather) said goodbye last Wednesday April 7 after losing a struggle with pneumonia. We were begging to think he was invincible a few days shy of 99. My grandpa was an incredible man who lived through so many technological advances, i watched a video today that revealed that when the airplane was first  beginning to be seen his friends and him would watched to see how close to the ground they would get without crashing. He was a strong Norwegian who in grade school would tell secrets to friends in his first language. I remember a couple years ago visiting grandpa in his house, bringing him McDonalds and asking how to say the weather is nice in Norwegian. He never skipped a beat and was clued in to all the latest information regarding finances and politics. I will remember my grandfather as  the harmonica playing, joke telling, prankster, who always had candy in his pocket, tobacco in his mouth, with the smartest head on his shoulders. He is a brave man for the risks he has taken and working ambition and i thank him for all he has done for my family. Grandpa is one of the biggest reasons I am able to go to school and i promise one day i will graduate from a university and make him more proud than he could ever be. I love you grandpa, thank you for everything .

Note to Self:

Be more independent

Ther green of the grass

only you can see the beauty that lies within your life

Fish in the sea, you know how i feel

Last week before spring break and my mom decided to take off. Before i thought she would be annoying me with her affections but now that its here she seems to have forgotten I’m here. Spoiling my sister with a camera and going out with her friends and my dad. Seems like this week i need her affections more than ever. Having to fight with school and work is tearing me up. One more day of class and what do i have to look forward to, 10 hour shifts at work. More than ever i need me time.

Time to swim with the sharks, bio test tomorrow.

Stop yourself

before you make that wrong decision you’ll always wish you haden’t.
Its not worth going through every second wishing you could turn back the clack even just 5 seconds because those things you said and did will never be forgotten.

Beauty lies in a bed of roses

Yet sometimes its as if it’s invisible.